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i had a dream about a good friend of mine last night, i was in bed with her just chilling, then we were naked but we weren’t doing anything, we were just like before chillin. then i was holding her in my arms saying how it might be interesting if we were to try being in a relationship. i started to rub her back, she hugged me close. i started to get turned on (i dont know why) and we started to roll around on the bed. then we fell of it, and i landed ontop of her, she positioned her self to me and asked if i wanted to do it with her, and just about as i was going to make my decision that was a yes to position my self right to her, i woke up.

now a nother friend asked me if i could ever think of having sex with the friend that was in this dream. or if i have ever jerked off thinking about her. now i could jerk off thinking about her, and i could have sex with her, hell i was in love with the girl, and still have feelings for her. i kinda wish that we can try out a relationship just to see what would come of it. it would be a wonderful sex live i know that lol, but we get along so well, just that she has been so busy with work (and as it has seemed the past month and 1/2 hanging out with other people and not me) that it might be difficult.

but as my luck shall have it, the girls that i can get, i dont really want. and the ones that i want, the ones that i have a mental attraction to as well as a physical attraction (or less of one, but the mental makes up for it) i dont get. such is my luck.

oh p.s. these posts will prob become more sexual n such over the comming posts, just cause things seem to be happening but not the way i would like them to be as just stated. but hey if i can get it i can get it right? right…. eh yeah, right.