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… she’s back

Yes, yes, yes, sorry, sorry sorry, to all (1 or 2 of you) who come to read my blog. It has almost been a year now since I last posted on here. For that I’m sorry. I’ve been busy with work, and play.

Play you ask? well not so much in the girlfriend area but with friends. Old ones and new ones, as i recall now from this past year. Hmm I’m getting this end of year/new years feeling now recapping the past years events… odd.

So here is a quick rundown of the past year in a semi order.
– may last year new phone
– new managers at my work (they rock)
– wii
– spent halloween down in nj with Aaron and Crystal a fucking blast with them have to do it more often, and had a great time playing wii with them.
– worked over a month and 1/2 with no day off
– worked thanksgiving
– worked 29 hours in the store the day before into xmas eve
– worked on xmas
– great b-day
– partys
– drinking
– found out that everyone is leaving my store but for me and one of my assistants
– already dreading later this month when 2 of my best workers and good friends are leaving.
– and maybe working on a new version of the site since i’ve not touched it in a year.

ya never know i might do it… heh

Well, Deathscythe, (my computer) is sick and in the hospital. it got some type of bug, that was in a picture that someone sent me, i didn’t think much of it at the time and thought i had deleted it, but yet had not done a virus check before i had to reboot my computer for another reason. stupid yes i know. so things were going fine with the start up, until the computer wanted to go into the log on screen after the xp logo. thats when it just checks A: drive and then sits there, doing nothing. same if i do safe mode, loads up divers and then sits there doing nothing but showing the list of drivers.

oh and btw yahoo and msn stoped working for me at the same time, and i can’t access those accounts for blindsyntax at all. so its odd…

so i’m hoping that computer hospital can fix this problem without a reformat. if not then so be it. at least i have that 300 gig hard dirve in there now with all the pics/vids and programs, the only thing thats not on there is the installed progs and of course the o/s. i guess this will give me the excuse to install some extra RAM in it that i’ve been wanting to 512 isn’t cutting it for me anymore heh.

in other news, now that i dont have my computer here, i’m using the lap top i use for when i do mr. computer man work. its ok, but i don’t have my favorites of web sites to surf. and stuff like that. but i do have the chat stuff to talk to my friends, and its got me thinking about stuff, what excactly i’m not sure, but stuff like letting go. letting go of what, again i’m not sure, but perhaps something like a security blanket of some sort.

and another thing, i’m single, why is it every girl who knows me is like, why are you single that doesn’t make sense. my reply is if i knew why i was single then i prob wouldn’t be now would i. and this is true. i don’t want to be single i want a girlfriend. i want an emotional connection with someone else that i can share stuff with, as well as mind blowing sex, but i digress.

so with that i’ve been playing on okcupid the past day or 2 and thinking, dare i say go back to myspace and maybe look around, although i think myspace is kinda lameish now, but its great for keeping in contact with friends, but not when that entails stalking their friends list and bitching about who’s in the top 8/12/16/ what ever…

also moving out would be a good thing, but lil zoom zoom needs to get paid off first, another year or a big fucking raise would do.

so thats my lil ramblings for now, i’m sure when i get the new comp back there will be a new redesign to this sight just like when deathscythe had to be reformated 4 or so years ago and lost everything, that is everything that wasn’t on the server, ah remember that people the few of you that actually come to this site. the per ver of this site, digi the digital world of me, yeah then i was a different person, the person still in the shell, the shell that didn’t get broken fully from kat, but started to be chipped from robin. its funny every time i grow in some way the site changes too. thats interesting something to think about… i wish i had my computer here to draw with, my fast amout of clip art images, although thinking about that right now, i’d prob do another set or 2 of mandalas, and speaking of that… i never posted those 4 that i have recently made. well if i saved them on the right drive and they are then when i get the comp back i’ll post them for ya 🙂

Why the fuck does vehix have to have the stupid old ads on tv again, i kinda liked the new ones, despite the stupid music in the background, grr. so here is my responce, its a repost from v2.0 but it still holds true!

Driving defensively. You will learn to recognize the need for and benefits of defensive driving, and that defensive driving involves both legal and personal responsibility. You will be able to identify risky driving attitudes and behaviors, determine if a collision was preventable, as well as become familiar with the DDC Collision Prevention Formula.

Making safe choices. You will able to identify the benefits of occupant restraint systems, explain the effects of alcohol and other drugs on driving ability, and spot physical and mental driver conditions that may affect your driving. You will also be taught techniques you can use to maintain control in adverse driving situations.

Becoming aware of conditions. You will be presented with driving skills and techniques to use in avoiding collisions and violations caused by vehicle or driving conditions.

Hone your skills. You will become familiar with the skills and techniques that allow you to avoid collisions and violations, and you will learn to spot the common types of driving errors that contribute to collisions. You’ll be taught how to make safe and legal turns, evaluate and overcome the hazards of passing, and how to avoid a head-on collision.

– What they don’t tell you is that its the worse 8 hours of your life that you will never get back, and the RMV makes you take it or they take your license away, shitty.

I was going through my old coats, jackets, and vests them to see what i wanted to keep and what i wanted to give to the crazy people that live at the place my mom works at. Apparently I went through a vest faze cause i had about 6 of them. So i was checking the pockets of the ones i was giving away, if i recall this was from my gray paiters coat from old navy, found 3 condoms (and they still haven’t expired: 1 6/07 the other 5/08) and this bottel cap.

I think it was from a time when Aaron and I went to visit our friend Alex and his then girlfriend who was a vegan mind ya…

so if i got this memory right i had a magic hat beer and this was under the cap: “Revel in Ravell”. Sounds cool huh, i think so, but there is a problem ravell isn’t a word, ravel is. Ravell is a last name, and it is a restaurant in Barcelona thats looks good and has tasty things but thats about it, oh well.

also on the inside of the cap is some dap logo type thing, and then umber 13. Maybe this is cap style 13 by dap who knows…

When i was taking the picture with my cam i noticed a shot i took a lil while ago at the dollar store at the mall. an entire wall 6 feet or more wide by 8 feet high of just lint rollers i had to take a picture it looked cool.

what a night…. one should be happy after a night like that, but me? no, its just not me, well it is a side of me, but not the side that i want out at this time.

my 2 do list:

– finish up work for kim (computer imputing/graphic designing goodness)

– actually use the teeth whiting strips, since i bought them

– redesign photo web site (and update photos too heh)

* p.s. if you know of a good hosting site where i can host the photos, but still link them into my own hosted pages that would be great… you know just thinking about bandwith transfers n such

– start to get rid of Buddha

-a possible redesign of blindsyntax, 3.5 or perhaps 4.0 not sure yet, but have some ideas

– clean the room – hard core!

– get back to the happiness that i was at a short time ago, what the hell happened to me?!?

in the dream i asked:
“ do you think that we could be more then friends?“

:: i then woke up ::

in the dream lies the answer to the question that should be asked in real life. so perhaps life will feel like a dream.

well i haven’t updated in a while, and thats cause i’ve had a life, and haven’t had much to talk about. it seems that when i’ve talked about stuff on here its about a girl, or girls, or lack there of.

now this isn’t exactly about a girl or girls, or lack there of, but i was wondering to my self, why can’t i find a girl (not that i’m looking, cause you’re not sup to look, it will find you) that is interested in me as well as i’m interested in her. cause that hasn’t happened in some time.

now the ex, kelly she seemed like she liked me, but i have my assumptions other wise, but since then i’ve yet to have a girlfriend. i have tons of girls who are my friends, and that is nice and everything, but what the fuck, why do i always have to be that great guy friend girls have, and not that wow i’d love to date that guy. its getting kinda bothersome i must say.

like i’ve said to people before why can’t everyone just be upfront with things and now they are, hey i like you really? so do i cool lets go do something about it, or hey i like you, oh i’m sorry i dont but you would be great as a friend (ie my life) that would work too.

blah

so guy 1 has an interest / likes girl 1, but that girl 1 likes guy 2, where guy 2 likes girl2, now girl 2 likes guy 3, but guy 3 doesn’t give girl 2 much attention, so she talkes to guy 4, who likes girl 2, but girl 2 doesn’t want a relationship with guy 4, she wants it with guy 3, oh and girl 2 says that girl 1 shows interest in guy 1 but guy 1 doesn’t get and direct signals from girl 1, no matter how many times he put something out there

kinda funny if you ask me
again i go unnoticed – song by dashboard confessionals

wow i haven’t updated in forever, sorry about that, i’ve actually been having a life, odd yes i know. i was just saying that to my self today when i was trying to think when the last time i posted here was, and i couldn’t.

so yeah in short, hanging out with friends, drinking, helping people with their computers, drinking, b-days, work, and sleep, is what i’ve been up to.

um and playing on myspace too, since everyone and their dog is on it…oye…

so um yeah a lil post

the cat is in the Cummings School of Veterinary Medicine at Tufts University, over in North Grafton, MA (some 45+ mins away) getting blood work, and other tests done… so yeah…

a little pre-post….

what happens in noho stays in noho

i haven’t posted much in the past couple while, but i’ve been busy with work, you know all that funn stuff we call the holidays. so yeah

but i thought i’d just post a little something:
i should have gone out tonight
i should move closer to where my friends are
i should move closer to where work is
i’m way too lonely, right now
i want to hold and be held by someone that really cares