friends are the glue that help keep each other together
through the difficulty of life
it’s the bond that is ever lasting
sleeping in this bed of loneliness
the bed that matches the heart
that singular muscle that feels so single
the only time you dont want to be no. 1
but rather a half of the whole
my 2 do list:
– finish up work for kim (computer imputing/graphic designing goodness)
– actually use the teeth whiting strips, since i bought them
– redesign photo web site (and update photos too heh)
* p.s. if you know of a good hosting site where i can host the photos, but still link them into my own hosted pages that would be great… you know just thinking about bandwith transfers n such
– start to get rid of Buddha
-a possible redesign of blindsyntax, 3.5 or perhaps 4.0 not sure yet, but have some ideas
– clean the room – hard core!
– get back to the happiness that i was at a short time ago, what the hell happened to me?!?
in the dream i asked:
“ do you think that we could be more then friends?“
:: i then woke up ::
in the dream lies the answer to the question that should be asked in real life. so perhaps life will feel like a dream.
i was just wondering…
whats it like to hold someone in your arms that cares about you
whats it like to cuddle with someone
whats it like to feel special
whats it like to feel lucky
whats it like to feel wanted
whats it like to be wanted
whats it like to be lucky
whats it like to be special
i was just wondering…
…cause i forgot
well i haven’t updated in a while, and thats cause i’ve had a life, and haven’t had much to talk about. it seems that when i’ve talked about stuff on here its about a girl, or girls, or lack there of.
now this isn’t exactly about a girl or girls, or lack there of, but i was wondering to my self, why can’t i find a girl (not that i’m looking, cause you’re not sup to look, it will find you) that is interested in me as well as i’m interested in her. cause that hasn’t happened in some time.
now the ex, kelly she seemed like she liked me, but i have my assumptions other wise, but since then i’ve yet to have a girlfriend. i have tons of girls who are my friends, and that is nice and everything, but what the fuck, why do i always have to be that great guy friend girls have, and not that wow i’d love to date that guy. its getting kinda bothersome i must say.
like i’ve said to people before why can’t everyone just be upfront with things and now they are, hey i like you really? so do i cool lets go do something about it, or hey i like you, oh i’m sorry i dont but you would be great as a friend (ie my life) that would work too.
blah
so guy 1 has an interest / likes girl 1, but that girl 1 likes guy 2, where guy 2 likes girl2, now girl 2 likes guy 3, but guy 3 doesn’t give girl 2 much attention, so she talkes to guy 4, who likes girl 2, but girl 2 doesn’t want a relationship with guy 4, she wants it with guy 3, oh and girl 2 says that girl 1 shows interest in guy 1 but guy 1 doesn’t get and direct signals from girl 1, no matter how many times he put something out there
kinda funny if you ask me
again i go unnoticed – song by dashboard confessionals
wow i haven’t updated in forever, sorry about that, i’ve actually been having a life, odd yes i know. i was just saying that to my self today when i was trying to think when the last time i posted here was, and i couldn’t.
so yeah in short, hanging out with friends, drinking, helping people with their computers, drinking, b-days, work, and sleep, is what i’ve been up to.
um and playing on myspace too, since everyone and their dog is on it…oye…
so um yeah a lil post
hey there party people, there is going to be a bunch of new pics on there cause i need to and going to get pics from amy and upload my ass off to this server and site, and you will all see the crazy times we like to have
the cat is in the Cummings School of Veterinary Medicine at Tufts University, over in North Grafton, MA (some 45+ mins away) getting blood work, and other tests done… so yeah…
a little pre-post….
what happens in noho stays in noho
i haven’t posted much in the past couple while, but i’ve been busy with work, you know all that funn stuff we call the holidays. so yeah
but i thought i’d just post a little something:
i should have gone out tonight
i should move closer to where my friends are
i should move closer to where work is
i’m way too lonely, right now
i want to hold and be held by someone that really cares
doing an image search for Christmas on google, to post an image on myspace for peoples comments, i came across this…
… and i ask why
(p.s. not that i have a prob with the site or that person, but why do i always need to find the most random things on line…)
yeah sorry i haven’t been posting, been busy with work n stuff with the girls hanging out and the alike. so summing things up in short that i’ve been up to.
1. hanging out with the girls
2. hanging out with aaron a couple times
3. sleeping
4. working my ass off
5. still single
6. and loving life
oh man.. what a night.. not that i can complain about being liz’s chair/comfy thing to lean against/device to keep her from falling over, or staning up
just a good friend to “my 3 girls”
and love them all!
Boy the Bear’s Age Gauge: “You said your birthday is 2 / 5 / 1980
which means you are 25 years old and about:
63 years 3 months younger than Walter Cronkite, age 89
58 years 7 months younger than Nancy Reagan, age 84
55 years 8 months younger than George Herbert Bush, age 81
48 years 4 months younger than Barbara Walters, age 74
46 years 3 months younger than Larry King, age 72
40 years 0 months younger than Ted Koppel, age 65
36 years 7 months younger than Geraldo Rivera, age 62
33 years 7 months younger than George W. Bush, age 59
28 years 7 months younger than Jesse Ventura, age 54
24 years 3 months younger than Bill Gates, age 50
19 years 5 months younger than Cal Ripken Jr., age 45
13 years 7 months younger than Mike Tyson, age 39
9 years 6 months younger than Jennifer Lopez, age 35
4 years 1 month younger than Tiger Woods, age 29
2 years 5 months older than Prince William, age 23
and that you were:
21 years old at the time of the 9-11 attack on America
19 years old on the first day of Y2K
17 years old when Princess Diana was killed in a car crash
15 years old at the time of Oklahoma City bombing
14 years old when O. J. Simpson was charged with murder
13 years old at the time of the 93 bombing of the World Trade Center
10 years old when Operation Desert Storm began
9 years old during the fall of the Berlin Wall
5 years old when the space shuttle Challenger exploded
3 years old when Apple introduced the Macintosh
3 years old during Sally Ride’s travel in space
a 1 year old when Pres. Reagan was shot by John Hinckley, Jr”
After doing a 12 hour shift, Amy wanted to take me out for drinks…
a lot of drinks…
it was also Brian’s birthday!!
In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along
I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretense
And still I feel I said too much
My silence is my self defense
And every time I’ve held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
And so it goes, and so it goes
And so will you soon I suppose
But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
So I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break
And this is why my eyes are closed
It’s just as well for all I’ve seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you’re the only one who knows
So I would choose to be with you
That’s if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break
And so it goes and so it goes
And you’re the only one who knows
“Johnny was a chemist’s son,
But Johnny is no more.
What Johnny thought was H20
was H2SO4.”
ok, any of you guys out there, and i know of 3 that i went to highschool with, when we were freshmen and we all knew of that hot teacher that we would all love to bang, and if we got the chance to, we would have.
i say props to the kid for getting some and i say props to the kinky teacher.
its not like the kid didn’t know what he was doing… that is… unlike a little child, the kid is 14 and was prob saying sweet like ever 10 seconds or how ever long he lasted heh
and i’m sure the teach could have found someone her age or what have ya, but hey she wanted something a bit different, and if they both agreed to it who the fuck cares, its stupid for the state to get involved, i’ll give ya that she is a teacher but that makes it all the more fun. and btw i’m sure that kids dad isn’t mad at all, prob took the kid out to dinner or something.
wow that was a long comment… longest one i ever made, i’ll just post this on my site as well.
happy t-day
(i bet that kid wouldn’t mind having seconds of some breat or thigh hehe)
wow what a night
me, amy, jen h, lo, the other guy (jay)
and the club population of downtown springfield
and i again say, i love those girls!
well tonight is the t-day eve. and i’m going out with a bunch of people to springfield meeting up with Aaron and some others too. tonight will most likely be a bit crazy i think… well at least on my end. can’t wait till i look at the pics after everything is all said and done (and snowed depending on when i get home).
so now its time for me to get ready and let the fun begin, then food tomorrow, then the craziness that is black friday when i work 7am-7pm and who knows maybe later then that.
🙂
oh my god what a fun fucking night!!!
and to the stupid fuck that tried to pick a fight to me… its a good thing that i walked away from you, cause you wouldn’t have known what you would have gotten your self into.
i love the girls!!!
Amy
Lauren
Erica
you all rock!
edit
Sometimes i wonder why or how is it that i have so many friends who are girls.
(….and never have a girlfriend)
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Well tonight it finally hit me. I was doing good for a long while now, and thought it was going to continue for at least a bit longer now. But it didn’t.
I got those stupid holiday blues again, that all or at least most single people get during the holidays. Wanting that special someone to just be with, snuggling together on the couch, drinking hot chocolate (or what have ya) and just enjoying the time together in the warmth of the house. Or even going on those great drives that we up here in New England can do to look at the changing scenery, or just the land scape its self. There are so many places around here in western mass that some people know of and other little “secret” places that are just waiting to be found.
blah…
Play like an allstar,
bang like a pornstar,
party like a rockstar!
sleeep
in my bed
that is me
empty is the bed
empty are my arms
empty is my heart
I wasn’t out last night with the girls, so I don’t have any of my own pics of Lo, and her crew, but the CampusCam did, check them out.
Ok Aaron said that dead aim worked with the new ver of aim… So reluctantly tonight, I downloaded the new ver and tried it out… Dead aim did work, kinda, for some reason it wasn’t displaying the icons the right way, so I uninstalled and went back to the old ver of aim… Well the only thing with that is the old ver doesn’t know that it was being used before, so all the other screen names (that I don’t use) are gone and so are all my away messages as well. fucking sucks.
also on that note, the new beta ver of aim is stupid, it is too “aol-ish” and looks like a knock off of what trillian can do. I’m sticking with my aim ver 5.5.3598 for now its the best one out there.. That is if that guy from dead aim can get off his ass and make a new copy of the hew vers lazy bastard.
Well I’m finally going back to work after 10 days off… Feels like a fucking month went by, and granted for most of Oct. I haven’t been in my store that much. With days off, a district meeting, new store opening and like I said my va-ca this month went by fast!
the past 24 hours I put together a new web site, yeah but this one isn’t for the public, its for all the girls whom graciously added me to their group, that I go out and have fun with at the bars n such. So this is my gift to them. I sent out a e-mail to all of you (those who read this site) so join up and lets have some fun with this.
other then that been doing the Halloween stuff, last night on Halloween I was Dr. Love again, but this time I went professional, and added a tie under the scrubs, people thought I was really a Dr. and more so that I was some doogie houser or something. I think I like to have fun with people too much, oh well no harm done.
Lo came out with us. It’s good to have her back in the swing of things. Makes me happy to see a smile on her once again. Oh and she looks very sexy in her maid out fit, Jen as you saw in the last post, was Chun Li, and sexy in that too. And Amy was cute as can be with her 2nd take on her army outfit. heh something about when she has her hair braided down in 2 pony tails, I just love it.
um what else, I was up in Northampton today looking around some of the different stores, and getting ideas for the gift giving season that is very quickly getting closer. I know that I def have to get 7 of my friends presents, some of them things will be easy to get others I have to put some more thought into. Although the ones that I’ve gave gifts to in the past, know that I always put thought into what they got. Also something that people should note, its not always the gift that is given but how it is presented, and the thoughts behind the gift. Just my thoughts on the gift giving thing… Perhaps I’ve watched too much tlc discovery, home and garden and the alike in my time. Oh well at least I know how to make a gift basket look cool.
Hi girls!
This site is for you from me. This is going to be for all of our pics we have taken when we are out being crazy strippers and hookers, when you’re trying to keep your “good girl” percents up high, being a make out whore, smart ass DJ, and just being crazy drunk ass kids!
With this site you can do some interesting things, with the invite i sent to you, you can post to this journal or blog as it is known as from any computer that as internet access, add comments to the posts from other people, look at all the pics we have took, and have a little online community just for our selfs. There is even a section on her for your favorite links.
Hope you all like this, and if you have any idea or ways to improve the site just let me know, always love input on these things.
– Seth aka blindsyntax
Well Dr. Love was out again tonight, but this time was with Jen and friends. She was Chun Li, from street fighter as you can see. Amy was a army girl or something, anyways, the party we went to sucked ass… It was like “hi I’m in high school and this is like my party, oh my gosh!” so after um about 20 mins, and 5 people asking if I was a real Dr. and taking 2 people pulses we jetted. And where did we go you might ask? Ah well our usual place, mcmerfs, and yes in full Halloween goodness, had some drinks then went to our 2nd usual place, the diner! And let me tell you our waitress was hot! Cute face, long legs and great personality. But I’m sure she’s taken just like all the rest heh.
tomorrow I get to head out to dads in the long-ghetto, to help him take down his adult “blow up kiddy pool” so that should be interesting, maybe I can get a lunch out of it or something 🙂
Ok, since me and the girls are always going out and taking pictures, I’m going to make a separate site just for us, and the pics that we take. So you girls with the non digital photos… Get them on a CD when you get the prints, or… I can scan them in. And you girls with the digital photos send them over to my e-mail and I’ll put them on the site as well… Just remember to send them to me (you know who you are) 🙂
oh and I don’t have all of your e-mail addys so just e-mail me with them and I’ll be sure to send you the link.
I love this time of year, everyone gets dressed up has fun and a good time is had by all… Well that is for this damn cold weather… Why couldn’t the people over in Ireland back in the day make the fall holiday when its warm out, not in this cold weather.
anyways we were going to have a bunch of people come with us to this party out in east buttfuck, but a bunch bailed on us, so it was just Amy and Gel (heh sorry I don’t know how to spell your full name, but since Amy calls you that this should be ok 🙂 ) and my self. But first off, Lo was going to go with us, but she said she didn’t have a costume, so I rounded up a bunch of randomness I had at the house and headed over, nothing worked out for her, and then chilled with her for about an hour trying to think up things for her to be, but that as well didn’t work out. Not even Amy could get her to come out with us 🙁 and after we got to the party and saw what people were in, Lo def could have half assed a costume and gotten away with it..
speaking of costumes, Amy looked fucking hot in her nurse’s outfit from hot topic so did Gel with her pirate costume, and self made corset, hot let me tell ya, both of them hot. And me? Well I was in my scrubs and bay state hospital lab coat being Dr. Love. And believe me I wouldn’t have minded giving a little of my bed side manor to some of the girls there tonight, although a bunch of them did look a bit on the skanky side… Oh well, the girls I was with soo out classed any other girl there by 1000 fold.
oh I almost forgot, when at Lo’s and the girls were getting ready I was playing with the refrigerator word magnets and came up with this little saying.
my delicate truth
then face my
velvet words
with denial
So today i really wanted to carve pumpkins but i had no one to do it with. and i was thinking that i’d go for a little drive tomorrow to look for some from a local grower for cheep, and not what they are at stop and shop…
the only thing with that is, that its one of those things that you’d do with a girlfriend or what have ya, you know going for a ride, picking out the pumpkins, going back home and having fun carving them up together, a date thing.
so i was talking to Amy tonight and she said that Lo was staying over for the night after work, and we came up with the idea of getting pumpkins and carving them all together as a surprise for Lo. so with that i went down to stop and shop paid my 12 bucks for the 3 huge pumpkins and one of those pumpkin saws for kids (mind you those rock for carving) and 2 stake knives (that are good for stake, and could be better for pumpkins) and headed over to Amys.
we had a blast, hot chocolate, popcorn, toasted pumpkin seads, and a new tradition is born, something i will be looking forward to from now on this time of year.
i was going to use a stencil of a dragon on my pumpkin, but that didn’t work out that well trying to put it on, so i free handed a wacky face, Lo did a drunk/stoned mexican smoking a blut (or the stem of her pumpkin that came off), and Amy… well amy did something more of a hieroglyphic style of something that she is very fond of, see if you can make out what it says…
Today i did something that i’ve never done before, i burned a couple cds and then went out to my car, and sat in it, and then listened to the music.
sound has always been an important thing to me, first with my computer, with 4.1 THX surround sound that is out of this world, then with my 5.1 Onkyo Home Theater on the tv, and now with my Bose system in the car, 4 speakers, 2 tweeters and a sub, god i love music!
the things that come out of my mouth…
-people could be sad when someone goes, but they shouldn’t they should be happy about the time they had with that person, and what they did during those happy times with them, death should be a celebration of life, not the solitude of death
-the mouth is where you speak from, its the exit of what your heart thinks, there for it has the most meaning of the parts of the body
Seth: I’m getting a new car
Amber: so am i
Seth: i’m getting a ’06 mazda 3
Seth: what are you getting
Amber: 99 Suzuki Esteem
Seth: they named a car after something people should have?
Amber: yes
Amber: I gave myself esteem
Amber: lol
Seth: i’m comming out with a goth line then, called depression, despair, and imprisonment, in 3 colors, virgin white, blood red, and dungeon black
Amber: HAHAHAHAHAHAH
today is a sad day, one of the girls whom i go out drinking with, and that i consider her my friend, Lauren, her roommate passed away this after noon. now i’ve only met Alista a couple times, and only chatted with her for a short while the first time. to me she was a happy person looking forward to finshing up her mathematics degree and if i recall becoming a teacher after that. she was the same age as me as well i belive. it just sucks how someones life can just be over with out any warning.
so laruen, my heart goes out to you, and a big hug, to try to help you threw this.
in other news, when you think you are over someone, and you know that you are over that person that you once had feelings for, you see something and that brings them up all over again. not so much the feelings for her i had before, but the feeling of being wanted like she was to him, knowing that “there is that special someone”, the anticipation of seeing them once again…
… i’d like to have that
This is what happens when i get bored and need a new image for the front screen of my cell phone…
i go ahead and make one 🙂
i just stoped in for one drink
one drink is all i wanted
the drink that will help me think
the drink that won’t make me daunted
Well today was a very interesting day, started off the day going down to the mazda dealership to talk money with the car guy, but was told that he wasn’t in today, i’m like oh allright, so walked around the holyoke mall, stoped in at the aero said hi to a couple people then went for a walk where i haven’t been in a while. a special place in holyoke. check out the pic.
cool huh? the water looks like it covered the land bridges not to long ago, and even a part of one of them was still covered in water, but only like a inch deep.
so then i went back to the car place, cause i got a call from the guy saying he was in, i guess the other guy didn’t know he was in at 2pm just after i left there. so i talked the talk and did the money thing, and guess what? i got my self a new car!!!
and with that i’m sleepy cause i went out with the girls tonight had my usual fun made a new friend too (hi liz) and now get to be at work for 730 in the morning, fun stuff
My love of legos has been going on since I was a little kid, I never had quatro, or even duplo. Always just lego. I had (and still have) 2 huge trunks filled with them, as well as a bunch of sorted legos in plastic tubs. Not to mention all the legos spread out on my work table from my little lego building frenzy I was in about last year, that started with the bionicle stuff.
I love how they put the technic and lego together. And with my past legos I’ve made some bad ass stuff if you ask me, anyways with I spotted the Robo Platoon a while ago but never got it, so the other day I went and finally got. I just love them cause they look like lil anime mechas made out of legos! And we all know how much I love my anime.
anyways the red and the tan one are cool they have their weapons n such but that blue one can only fly, and not even forward or anything only up, if you move the “wings” to the back, it looses its balance, not to mention it doesn’t have any weapons for defense… I wouldn’t want to be part of this platoon. But the one major problem I have with this set is the little gray circle in all of their torsos. It doesn’t stay connected! And when trying to move the arms or legs, the top half of the body just pops off like someone just hit a eject button. Also the head needs something on the back side so it doesn’t come off to easy as well.
granted this set isn’t one of those crazy big lego things they got out there, but I’d expect something a bit more from them besides the cool design, you have to have to elements be as sound as the design. I wish they would come up with a huge lego set to do some sweet ass mecha with, and not this dorky looking one the color scheme just sucks if you ask me, hehe but I like how they chopped up a lego guy and took its bottom half and use that for its fingers (they could have done better).
now I’m sure there are some nuts out there, and on line with a step by step on how they did their super lego mecha with pictures and everything but yeah I’m lazy and I just want to buy the damn thing, to bad anything bigger then 6 inches is like over 50 bucks, damn it Aaron why can’t you still work at lego!!
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