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tonight kat and i went to the mall to look for gifts n such and just to hang out cause we haven’t in the longest time. i just soo miss hanging out like we used to.

tonight kat did something that she never did before, she gave me a hug. it wasn’t a face to face hug, more of a me facing forward walking and she was sideways hugging me as we walked. i just melted. if i had any thing wrong with me, worrying about anything, or just any bad thoughts, there wasn’t anything of the sort when she was hugging me. and that sucks cause that means that i still have feeling for her. and as much as i like her, i dont want her cause that could mess up our friendship. but damn it i’m still in love with her. grr

do to current things, that are happening i’m going to redo the site… i’ve had the picture i’m going to use for a while but now i guess i have the “motivation” do use it… and it kinda fits i think… you’ll see, and i guess (some of) you will read too.

Yeah so my vaca was kinda a bust. Not that I wanted to go anywhere with anyone, but it would have been nice. Everyone was at work or in school or something like that. Oh well but the start of the vaca went well. Hooked up the first 2 nights and did a Halloween party then just chilling, and going to the mall (Holyoke not mine) to walk around and see what’s going on n such. Hey its an excuse for exercise right? And I got one of those egg shell foam bed things that’s oooh soo comfy. Um had a after-Halloween party yesterday at Mel’s place in noho, cops broke it up cause the neighbors are old fucks, who never had any fun, and we weren’t even loud or anything jesus get a life damn hippies.

so tomorrow is the last day of my vaca and Kat said she would give me a call after school/work or something so that would be cool hanging out with her. I haven’t seen her in about 2 weeks at least and I miss her. Surprisingly to my self she hasn’t been on my mind as much as she was when I was writing all that stuff (scroll down the page). haha maybe I need some kat shock or something to get my creative juices flowing again… Well that wasn’t creative juice more like sad pulp. Oh well… I got a couple of “backgrounds” for the new version of the site and just thinking on what I want to go with and like a theme. Or it might be many backgrounds with many themes… But do I really want to put that much work into the site that no one at all reads? Like last month I had a grand total of 24 hits, and just to give you a hint of what this year as been like so far here is the run down of the month and the hits during that month enjoy.

Jan 121

Feb 62

Mar 33

Apr 52

May 55

Jun 75

Jul 43

Aug 64

Sep 30

Oct 24

Nov 1