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so yeah

new computer (had to reformat remember?),

new ways of thinking,

new version of web site comming soon,

new people,

new things,

new type of person,

new out look,

new toys,

new friends,

new me

Well so far soo good, I just finish installing win xp and I can like multi task once again, let my productivity commence!

my comp is a piece of crap, it doesn’t know how much memory i have so it craps out on me, and what else…. oh yeah i can’t do anything in it cause of that memory problem too… i’m on my moms computer now, how i’m able to type this… but yeah i need win xp on my system again!

it seems like everyone has their own thing going on this semester and im just taging along.i get wicked lonely at school and this semester is prolly going to be the worst. i cant believe that i like to be in class because i dont like being alone in my rooom.

you know its odd that you talk to someone for a while like in an IM and then you just stop… like for not particular reason, just dont have anything else to talk to with that person… this ever happen to you?

So I like this girl, well I think I do, yeah I do. Its her smile that gets me, and those yummy brown eyes that she has, and not to mention that killer body she has as well. But she is only looking for fun now, is what I hear, I have her s/n now so I’ll talk to her and find out whets up n stuff. But hey I could do the fun thing too… I need sex bad! But on the other hand if we become to “know” each other as it were, then that might mess with my emotions ya know? hmm I just really kinda dig her. I need to talk to her to find out more. yum!

whhhhhhooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo my batterie is dead in my car!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now i get to buy a new one, and then go pc shopping with mom yeeeeee haaaaaaaaaaaa… and i bet she is going to want a lone of money too… suka!

omfg… from the sec my mom steps into the house, I was about to get ready, so me being the nice guy I am, I asked her if she wanted to get in to the bathroom before I get ready n such.. shes like yea, so she goes in, I go on the comp to try to copy files from my cam over to the comp, and she comes out, my comp is acting up so I’m sitting to see what’s going on. Then mom is like oh and empty the towel basket and cat box.. Now granted that’s not soo much of a request, but when ever I’m trying to get ready, or go out, she is like do this this this this this and oh this too, and its usualy the most dirty of dirty things that can be done, and its like oh its not that hard to bring down towels to the washer, hell we have our own in the house!

so as I got out of the shower, I hear her on the phone ranting and raving about her daily school shit that happens and blah blah blah, I just told her off today when shes like I have this this and this to do and I’m not out partying n stuff, now I haven’t been “parting” at all this week on my vaca just chillin, and I just told her, well you had your chance and its not my fault where you’re at now, or something to that effect, and now is the time for me to be doing this, and I was all good n stuff when I was a teen , something to that effect, it sounded really good when I said it hehe, but anywho I’m going to go now, and get to the mall return a shitty cd walk man and maybe look at some clothes n stuff.

oh btw tonight is the night I’m going out parting hheheeheheh 😉

I fucking hate windows ME, it is such a fucking load of monkey shit! I need to get my cd back from Aaron and reload win xp. Oh just thinking of that makes me happy.

in other news I found the site where I got the stock photos for the new ver of the site, but I’m not sure if I’m going to use them in the same context as I did the first time around… Also I have to get photoshop 7 back on the computer as well as xp as stated before cause apparently win ME can’t handel 512 megs of ram, instead it thinks I have oh I’d say about 64… grr

so i got drunk last semester and told one of my friends about a guy i thought was hot. apparently he was friends with him and told him. now hes in one of my classes and im wicked embarassed. one more reason to hate going to class.

my car is dead… it craped out all its transmition fluid in the parking lot. guess im stuck here in dartmouth for a whille. 🙁

lost everything on my computer cause dell sucks, they said it wasn’t the virus but it prob was… so everything is gone. including the 2nd version of the web site, granted it wasn’t done but it was on its way to be… damn it to hell.

oh well, not i just need some sex to make me feel better… fucking a!!!

no, i dont want to get up.

i want to say in bed and fuck!

(first thing that went through my mind when i got up just a couple mins ago (note: i was in bed alone))

i hate my mom!

new featurs on blogger!

Spellchecking: Fewer typos. Look smarter.

– sweet

Post-Dating: Adjust the date and time for a post, so it can show up under yesterday’s heading, or save it for a later date (so you remember to post about your friend’s birthday).

– sweet

Drafts: Not done with that thought? Mark it a draft and complete it later. Or keep things in draft form for your own reference.

– sweet

Daily Archiving: In addition to monthly and weekly options.

– ok

Post Titles: An optional field to add a title, or subject line, to each post. Handy if you format things that way in your template.

– sweet

Post Template: If you routinely use the same formatting or HTML in your posts, load it in automatically.

– um ok

BlogSend: Post to your blog, and it is sent via email.

– semi-sweet

Image/File Upload: Easily upload and link to photos and other files when making a post. Not available for non-Plus .blogspot.com sites! “

– i have my own server so ha! (oh and the blogs are going to be switched over to it cause i’ve known how to do it for a while now but just to damn lazy hehe)

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so did the date thing tonight, it was fun. the restaurant we were going to go to was close, cause its monday and of course all Italian restaurants are closed, well all but rinaldi’s in longmeadow, they’re close on tuesdays. so we ended up going over to fitzwillys in noho. and then went for a little walk up the st. to get some tea, and then i droped her back at her dorm up at umass, cause she has a papper thing to write, and she wanted to get a head start.

so in all a fun night, but its way to early for me to be home right now i have a feeling… grr so yeah the shoes are going to be staying on for a bit tonight.

oh so i’m redoing the site like for real, that is if you haven’t read my personal blog on here.

and a fyi, i have a date tonight (monday)

so i’m getting sick of seeing every person with another person and being so happy together, this sucks, i hate being single, i hate it, hate it, hate it.

so everyone says, well dont look for someone and then you will find someone. the other people say well if you dont look for someone then you dont find anyone. wft its one thing or the other. shit i wouldn’t be too happy with a fuck buddy, but hey it will serve its purpose. but what it goes down to is that i dont want that. i want a relationship (with sex) and all of that stuff that a relationship entails with it. both good and bad. what i do not want is a nother one like my last one… but i won’t get into that now.

oh and finally where the fuck did summer go? thats all for now. oh and i’m working on the new verison of the web site, like coding n stuff.. wow huh yeah tell me about it. so it will be up one of these days n stuff… ttfn

the hardest part about college is the loneliness

i wish i could meet people at school that where more like me.

i curled up into a ball and wanted to fade away.

now i just want to fade away

so today is my first night back at school. everything is pretty good so far. my roomate is nice, which is nice. the room is waaayyy nicer then i thought allthough the people is 3a across from my building are pretty fucking loud. i hung out with the guys for a bit but i have too much stuff to do here to go out and get shit faced. my friend ray stoped by for a bit which was cool. i like seeing everyone and having stuff to do other then play with my cat at home. this semester is goona be hard but hopefully it will be fun. my car broke on the ride up here. radiator fulid is leaking everywhere. hopefully it can be fixed without costing alot. i need my car.. no more pvta.

i feel so alone right now,

and i’m afraid,

that’s all i’ll ever be.