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you know its odd that you talk to someone for a while like in an IM and then you just stop… like for not particular reason, just dont have anything else to talk to with that person… this ever happen to you?

So I like this girl, well I think I do, yeah I do. Its her smile that gets me, and those yummy brown eyes that she has, and not to mention that killer body she has as well. But she is only looking for fun now, is what I hear, I have her s/n now so I’ll talk to her and find out whets up n stuff. But hey I could do the fun thing too… I need sex bad! But on the other hand if we become to “know” each other as it were, then that might mess with my emotions ya know? hmm I just really kinda dig her. I need to talk to her to find out more. yum!

whhhhhhooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo my batterie is dead in my car!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now i get to buy a new one, and then go pc shopping with mom yeeeeee haaaaaaaaaaaa… and i bet she is going to want a lone of money too… suka!

omfg… from the sec my mom steps into the house, I was about to get ready, so me being the nice guy I am, I asked her if she wanted to get in to the bathroom before I get ready n such.. shes like yea, so she goes in, I go on the comp to try to copy files from my cam over to the comp, and she comes out, my comp is acting up so I’m sitting to see what’s going on. Then mom is like oh and empty the towel basket and cat box.. Now granted that’s not soo much of a request, but when ever I’m trying to get ready, or go out, she is like do this this this this this and oh this too, and its usualy the most dirty of dirty things that can be done, and its like oh its not that hard to bring down towels to the washer, hell we have our own in the house!

so as I got out of the shower, I hear her on the phone ranting and raving about her daily school shit that happens and blah blah blah, I just told her off today when shes like I have this this and this to do and I’m not out partying n stuff, now I haven’t been “parting” at all this week on my vaca just chillin, and I just told her, well you had your chance and its not my fault where you’re at now, or something to that effect, and now is the time for me to be doing this, and I was all good n stuff when I was a teen , something to that effect, it sounded really good when I said it hehe, but anywho I’m going to go now, and get to the mall return a shitty cd walk man and maybe look at some clothes n stuff.

oh btw tonight is the night I’m going out parting hheheeheheh 😉

I fucking hate windows ME, it is such a fucking load of monkey shit! I need to get my cd back from Aaron and reload win xp. Oh just thinking of that makes me happy.

in other news I found the site where I got the stock photos for the new ver of the site, but I’m not sure if I’m going to use them in the same context as I did the first time around… Also I have to get photoshop 7 back on the computer as well as xp as stated before cause apparently win ME can’t handel 512 megs of ram, instead it thinks I have oh I’d say about 64… grr

my car is dead… it craped out all its transmition fluid in the parking lot. guess im stuck here in dartmouth for a whille. 🙁

lost everything on my computer cause dell sucks, they said it wasn’t the virus but it prob was… so everything is gone. including the 2nd version of the web site, granted it wasn’t done but it was on its way to be… damn it to hell.

oh well, not i just need some sex to make me feel better… fucking a!!!

no, i dont want to get up.

i want to say in bed and fuck!

(first thing that went through my mind when i got up just a couple mins ago (note: i was in bed alone))

i hate my mom!

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– i have my own server so ha! (oh and the blogs are going to be switched over to it cause i’ve known how to do it for a while now but just to damn lazy hehe)

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so did the date thing tonight, it was fun. the restaurant we were going to go to was close, cause its monday and of course all Italian restaurants are closed, well all but rinaldi’s in longmeadow, they’re close on tuesdays. so we ended up going over to fitzwillys in noho. and then went for a little walk up the st. to get some tea, and then i droped her back at her dorm up at umass, cause she has a papper thing to write, and she wanted to get a head start.

so in all a fun night, but its way to early for me to be home right now i have a feeling… grr so yeah the shoes are going to be staying on for a bit tonight.

oh so i’m redoing the site like for real, that is if you haven’t read my personal blog on here.

and a fyi, i have a date tonight (monday)

so i’m getting sick of seeing every person with another person and being so happy together, this sucks, i hate being single, i hate it, hate it, hate it.

so everyone says, well dont look for someone and then you will find someone. the other people say well if you dont look for someone then you dont find anyone. wft its one thing or the other. shit i wouldn’t be too happy with a fuck buddy, but hey it will serve its purpose. but what it goes down to is that i dont want that. i want a relationship (with sex) and all of that stuff that a relationship entails with it. both good and bad. what i do not want is a nother one like my last one… but i won’t get into that now.

oh and finally where the fuck did summer go? thats all for now. oh and i’m working on the new verison of the web site, like coding n stuff.. wow huh yeah tell me about it. so it will be up one of these days n stuff… ttfn

i curled up into a ball and wanted to fade away.

now i just want to fade away

i feel so alone right now,

and i’m afraid,

that’s all i’ll ever be.

most people would wish to have super powers.

me, i just wish i never had them in the first place.

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its funny, you know. that someone who is very much like my self, would do the same exact thing that i would do if i were in her shoes. so thats why i’m cool with it, cause i totaly understand.

and it also kinda hurts that i can never be “there” during the right time.

such is the life that i live.

me: well if you keep on going south, you end up north

marcie: hahah so true

me: nifty huh

marcie: sure is. kind of like my crotch on fire

me: hmm

me: maybe

me: mine has more whit, you’rs has more…

me: pubic hair

marcie nah. i shave like i’m 12 and stuff

marcie: i like guys to feel like they are touching a child

me: oh mama!

me: i like

marcie: hahahaha

me: well just like a 12 year old would like this story, and the line from the story goes, the better to eat you with

me: and boy do i loooooooooove to eat

marcie: hahahaha

no, i dont have a g/f. but i wish i did

OOOoOoooooo… does Seth have a girlfriend??!!!

(as of now)

how is it,

that i usually,

some how,

fuck,

things,

up?

ah now it has added meaning. no prob. not going to push, not going to stress.

Don’t be moody. Don’t prejudge. You need to get out and challenge yourself.

– my horoscope for tomorrow, hmm

people are just sooo mature now a days… why do i say this? well i just love getting prank calls on my cell phone waking me up at this time of night.

a (not so) random thought…

“the last time i had trouble sleeping like this, was when i first met Kat…”

it bothers me that there isn’t anything of educational value on tv at this time of night.

tonight i met (in person) a new life long friend. this is going to be such a fun ride!

… just hope i don’t trip and fall down along the way. and if i do, that she’ll fall with me

i’m sooo bored off my ass right now

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well i’m not going to do a hot naked guy section. just cause, well i’m not gay. but since most of the writers are (and will be girls) i guess there could be a hot guy section… but of course i have to be in it, and you have to take the pics, cause i know i’m not going to be taking any pics of some hot guy. not at all.

oh ps. i came up with an idea for the site, was working on it, kinda “punkish ??” but i dunno, found some cool tech brushes in photoshop that i might just scrap that current redesign of the site and go from there. all i know is i need some insperation that i had a year and so ago, when i was just pushing out images, graphics, web pages.

i dont know what happened to that, and i want it back….

better yet how bout a hot naked guy section.

random thought since i have the new cam now, and i can’t sleep… how about a western mass girls photo section with pics from the new cam? sounds good to me.

so here i am, awake at the comp. why do you ask? well cause i can’t sleep. grr i hate this.

RADIOHEAD ON WED!!!!!!!!!

so where do i begin today’s / night’s events. well lets start from the time i got home till now and then from the begining, like all good movies do.

i got home at 2 am, still wet. put Kat’s food in the fridge and then went up stairs. i said hello to my mother. she asked why i didn’t move the stuff around down in the family room. i said i didn’t get around to it and that its not a big deal. she said it was. i said i’ll do it tomorrow. am i working, yes in the morning i replied. went in to my room closing the door behind me checked my mail, friendster, and away messages. sent Kat a e-mail. put up away message saying i’m taking a shower. took shower dried off. went into my room again, looked at Aaron’s web site. read about the coffie mod, and now blogging.

start of day: i woak up at 6 or so am, couldn’t go back to bed. went to my computer not too far from my bed, and stared to work on the new version of the web site, where i left it when i went to bed a few hours before i got up. got tiered of doing that, looked at some stuff on line. went to bed at 9am. got up at 1pm after some interesting dreams that i can’t recall only after 2 mins of waking up. went on computer and started to play around with web site once more. read e-mail from mom asking me to move things down stairs so she can set up her office down there. i played around on line a bit. talked to my friendster friend Jess, making plans for tomorrow night. Kat came on line. i said to her test went well hmm? she said yes. i had called her mother when i got up but she was sleeping after a all night work session. we made plans for meeting at the mall cause we both had things to do there. i wanted to look at some digital cameras and perhaps buy one.

middle of the day: took shower, got dressed and went to the mall. first went to circuit city to look at the cams, they were redoing that part of the store, pluss the people working there were just standing around, a cute girl that worked there was standing against the display for the cams, i took a quick look around, and then walked out. drove over to best buy and chatted with a guy that kinda knew something about the digital cameras but i knew more just through osmosis. i played around with the cams a bit and decited i’m going to buy one on line most likely. then took a walk over to target to look at a little sony cam that i fell in love with nothing special about it, only that its the size of a big pack of gum. got a call from Kat to meet her infront of good ol H+M. more then a couple mins later of waiting for her, and that is after i took a look around at some places on the way to the store she comes around the corner all smiles. because to day is her 21st birthday. we went shopping in h+m, wet seal, charlotte russe(sp) express, fileines, and victoria’s secret. she did a lot of trying on and a little bit of buying. we then met up at her house after the mall.

end of day: i got to her house first, hung with her fam for a bit, she got there, got ready and i took her out to dinner at red rose. from there we went to uno’s, and met up with 2 of her school mates from her summer class that she just finished that morning. then 2 other girls that was in her class stopped by as well. very pretty. from there we went in one of the girls cars all 6 of us, girls in the front guys in the back, over to the pour house or how ever you spell it. kat’s cousin katie, who i semi like, (shes very cute) stoped in, but was chilling with a bunch of friends, i went over to say hi, later on i went to try to buy her a drink but way to many people around and she was chatting away with her friends so i said forget about it. from there kat had the wonderful idea of going to the ‘gra. i wasn’t too thriled about that, but i went with the flow. in the ‘gra we did a shot, and she went over to the table, ran into some kid she knew from track or something and then went to go get a drink at the bar, she asked me to hold her seat at the main stage. so i’m standing behind the chair, more then a few mins go by i’m like wft, so i went over to the bar, kat has 2 flowers from this guy and i’m like where did everyone else go, cause we got seperated. shes like i dunno. and the guy who def had more then a few drinks is like hey there is some sexy chocolate over there why dont you go take a look, in other words trying to get rid of me, semi pissing me off in the prosses, but i let it slide. i went looking around, ran into some girl who is like i know you, my responce you do? yeah.. i’m like well i work retail, used to work at h+m, my name is seth, shes like oh i do know you. and a friend of mine wouldn’t be happy (or something to that effect) that you’re here (or something). i’m like who’s that, shes like i’d rather not say. i’m like ok fair enough, and i’m like what is your name, she woulnd’t tell me that eighter, well i’m like um ok well have a good evening then and went looking around. coulndn’t find anyone, went to kat i’m not having fun here, the guy again tried to get ride of me, saying you keep on comeing back to your girlfriend, why dont go look at the strippers or someting, my immediate responce to him, she’s not my girlfriend. then i said to her, i’m going to go back to my car and go home, i’m sorry but i’m not having fun. she was a bit pissed, i told her its not your fault and i’m sorry, shes like ok what ever. so i took a quick glance around the ‘gra and then left. since we took one car and i was by my self i walked from the ‘gra on one side of springfield to the new basketball hall of fame on the other side of springfield. it started off with a light sprinkle and then about the last 1/4 of the way there stared to rain, i jogged/ran a total 1/4 of the way most of it when it started to rain. i got nice and wet. went to my car that smelled of kats left over food from red rose, and then just drove home with no music on and my window down trying to cool me off, since my asthma didn’t like me running around in the rain. pulled into my drive way got kats food and my body lotion from victoria’s secret that i bought. and entered my house.

epilogue: i started to blog around 2:30 and now its a bit after 3 am. i have to work in the morning, wondering what kat is going to say about tonight, and what happened after i left her as well. in the e-mail it said that i’m sorry that i left, and hope she had a good evening in short. so now i’m going to go play with the new version of the web site, wonder who the fuck was that girl that knew me at the ‘gra, think about one of kat’s school mate’s boobs, cause they were just soo cute with out a bra on under her shirt, wishing i kept track of her at the ‘gra. and finaly wishing that we did what i originally talked with kat about on monday, taking her out to dinner, and then drinking at the tunnel up in noho, having a good time. in all another learning experience for me to go down in the “books” of time and my life i guess.

tomorrow is another day. a new day for me.

things are going to change, i can feel it.

listen up kiddies i got some new members (i hope) comming over soon so keep a look see.

(as soon as i get some insperation (or what ever you call it) i’m going to redo the site)

i went out with my good friend Mel tonight, we went to the tunnel bar. we got drunk. rock on!

ok so my life doesn’t suck so much i had a date last night. i thought it rocked.

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tonight, i helped my friend.

i helped my friend feel better.

because i’m her friend.

because i love her.

marcie: if i lived closer i would totally make you kick me in the vag

marcie’s comment if she lived closer to me. can you feel the love? i can.

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Well I just saw a show on Bravo called, Queer Eye for the Straight Guy.

It reminded me of times when i worked at H+M.

Thats all just thought it was a cool show.

all the good girls are:

1. taken by a nother guy

2. live in another state

3. live in a other state too far away

4. live in same state too far away

5. not interested in me

6. won’t let me know that they are interested in me, there for i won’t act…

7. dont like boys…

um, p.s. my life sucks, more to come with a site redesign or unless something extraordinary comes to pass.

what the fuck???? did i really write that?

inm soo fuckked